Embrace the Unknown

why you should feel excited of not knowing..

I got a job offer in a different city and this will require my family and I to leave the life that we’ve been accustomed to behind.

The house we’ve grown to love, the routines, the ease and convenience of being close to family, the familiar day to day schedules. It's so wild to think that my life will be completely different a year from now.

I am scared.

You see, all my life, I have always craved clarity.

I LOVE TO PLAN.

It’s pretty evident if you go to my bedroom or in my office. There are tons of planners laying on the floor, some written halfway through, some dusty, some unopened. The thought of having some control through planning is comforting for me. It’s as if I can be protected from failure or from pain. I thought maybe, if I write it down, it’s how it will go down and I can actually be prepared.

I remember writing a blog post about my marriage many years ago, what age I want to be married, which church, and what style of wedding gown I will be wearing. It’s as if I knew exactly what was about to unfold on that special day.

But then when that day actually came, none of those written plans happened.

Right now, I feel like I am slightly losing grip of that control yet again because of this big change that is about to happen to my life. And it sucks.

This morning, I came across a quote that says “how lucky I am to be uncertain about my future because my options are plentiful”.

And that resonated so much.

Life can be so amusing in a sense that it’s like we’re in this endless labyrinth with so many unknown pathways and every decision we make leads to different destinations, different outcomes. Which ironically, is comforting as well. Like, how cool is it that life has infinite possibilities and we actually have the choice to pick which path we take sometimes.

So, I guess instead of feeling fearful of this change, I should be excited.

Life would be so boring if we follow a set script, if all that we planned for actually happened. Where is the fun in that? These uncertainties and the fear that we feel is what keeps us alive. Also, this path of unknown could open to so many more new people to meet, a community to build, lessons to learn and more opportunities to take.

I wouldn’t be here if my parents did not take the chance to immigrate here from the Philippines 20 years ago. I bet it was a very scary decision to make at that time for them.

So here’s to the endless possibilities ahead. The next path. On to the next chapter.